Brave Beautiful Butterfly...

The edge of day was wet and misty...a bleak grey start...

The colours were muted...dull greens lined the way...either side of me...

This road is a river...a river that takes me away...out of town...and her little car is my boat...

I sail away from her and towards my Boys...i am bringing them a hot drink on a cold day...

But as i listen to Justin [who else] on the radio...my mind is with her...knowing a tough day is waiting to unfold before her...many footsteps...hers...repeatedly the heavens will open...the sky will cry straight down onto her bright pink umbrella...she'll be dry and safe but still unsure and slightly uncomfortable...she does not handle change well....and for now change will be her constant companion...new places...new faces...strange eyes searching hers out...trying to figure her out...

brand new friendships will be born and take first breath...

What will she discover on this new chapter begun...?

Strengths she never knew she had...weaknesses too...fears...a few...

One thing is sure...knowledge will be hers from today onward...

the kind u find in books... and gain from people...and new experiences....

good and bad...

She will discover the truth...her truth...

not mine not his... hers...

And all the lessons i have tried to teach her throughout these....

 magical... slowly meandering speed of light years...?

EVERY SINGLE PRAYER I HAVE EVER whispered in the dead of night...spoken out loud with a smile on my lips or called out over her from deep within my trembling heart...prayers that i have forgotten all about...my God has heard and remembers them all ...every fight her and i have ever ALMOST had... every loving look and moments of understanding that have passed from me to her and back...these things have been readying her for this next chapter in her story...and will stand her in good stead... 

For i was there... from the very beginning...and only by the grace of God... i still am...

her time is now...like a butterfly bewildered after it's birth...she stands...

for a moment drying out those new wings...uncurling their beauty...catching her breath...

Be brave beautiful little butterfly

gently does it...time to show your unique wing design and splashes of colour...

hand painted there by the creator Himself...

You got this...

<3

Post Script

My daughter Bianca-Leigh has just started  University...fresh out of high school...she wants to become a teacher in the foundation phase [grade 0 through 3]...and finds the idea of being one of the very first people to impact a young mind in a positive way very exciting...

While we are lucky she is able to stay home with us during her studies...

 this is still a season of... 'everything all so brand new' and is a little overwhelming for her and for us...

She is still in a time of adjustment...and as for Edwin and I...we are both totally there for her...behind her every step of the way...still... all in for her...
while learning to 'let go'... little bit by precious little bit...

because that's what parents do...